As I was editing photos, I couldn't think of any idea how these photos should be interchange.

I then went to Su En blog to search for more photos to be editted, or more "ideas". Her blog post then remind me of those shattered memories.

扪心自问, is it my fault to cause such disharmony conflicts afterall?

To the think of it, I may be be the source of the whole entire conflict. Yes, but I'll never regret even doing it so.

I've been trying to be a good friend now, but no one trust me, not anymore like the past. No one could withstand anymore blows.

If no one appreciate my friendship, then don't even try and pick up those shattered friendship. Don't let me hate you, because between hate and love, it is only a line difference. Don't accuse me of things I didn't done, cause I really didn't done. I don't have to lie, I really don't have to.. What's the point.. ? Any futher explaination wouldn't do any help either.. If this is a mistake, blame it on me, because as a friend, I could not make you trust even a simple task on me entirely.

Ahh, forget about it! We just have to cherish our future, doesn't we?

Ok! Let's discuss, who have changed?

All of us has changed actually, let me start with the person who changed the most..

Su En! Look at your past. You've change a lot, regardless of looks and character, have you ever wondered something my dear? You've changed the most. (: You look innocent in the past, but now.. changed a lot. A women with a bit of elegance, a sense of humor and with a vibrant mature look.

You have a heck care attitude all the time, based on my experiences. (If I'm not wrong) You need someone to encourage you when your down. I mean, everyone does, isn't it? You might look strong on your surface, but you're fragile deep inside.

Similarly, I've changed too. I look so inmature, so childish, like a child or sissy whatever they called. I don't really understand myself, cause, I'll never be able to see through myself. I've been lying to myself all my lifetime perhaps. All I can see the changes in me is my height. -_- Which obviously I grow taller. My friend(won't say), once ask me before, do you know how unwelcome you're in the past?

I was stunned with a moment, and I answer with a smile. Why? Perhaps I'm just showing a side of my hypocritical looks, but I guess this isn't the answer.

He told me, you're unreasonable in the past, stubborn, gay etc. I was utterly upset.. He say, in the past, the things you want, you'll definitely get it for sure. I don't even know why every one treat you so good. He say, everyone is just giving in to you.

He told me something that make me even upset. He told me, for him, he only PITY me. I don't see why I should listen your words, he told me. I don't even know why they're so good to you. I go with the CROWD, I'm not favouring you or etc.

Friends that don't know me in real life, have you ever wonder how gay my action can be in the past? To the think of it, yes, indeed, GAY. Stupid enough of me to scold myself. Even now, perhaps. I could not find any solution to the cause of friendship. The only morale value I found perhaps is, just be truthful I guess.

Truthful, a term of friendship used by me, enough to clear misunderstanding, solve conflicts and improve bonds.

His words enlighted me, then I ask him something. Do you ever had any best friends, or any friend that really understand you?

His answer is no, same goes to me. We both questions ourselves why? But we couldn't find the solution either.

Su En, do you remember this photo? I hope you'll remember, it's at an outing at Sentosa last year. Look carefully at the number, you should know what does the number mean. I know I've editted this photo before, but this time, I use even simple edition.

Hopefully, our memories will never ends. Remember, if there's a will, there's a way.